We can all have it

 Why does it seem so synonymous with a lot of gay men, it sounds this comes with being gay or bi.

I have been reading a lot of blogs lately and one thing that come out clearly s this bout of depression, self confusion and at time denial coupled with self loathing that is so unnecessary

They say happiness comes from the depths of our souls and every being has an ability to be happy in whatever scenario or situation. It’s a priceless gift happiness they say-I know what many of us are going through can be difficult not to have to deal many a time with it alone or you confide in acquaintances that in turn threaten or blackmail us into their slaves.

The fear of unknown usually overrides us probably denies us the happiness we never come to experience. Love messes us up emotionally and derails us from what we want wholly for what we need sexually. We thinks all is fairytale in relationships and when reality sets in we go into these cocoons of depressing hiding from the world(friends, family) hoping tomorrow the sun will rise with the birds singing happy tune that will rejuvenate us from self destruction.

We always find excuses in unbalanced love, imperfect boyfriends/partners and some time the world if not the devil. We believe having it all in perfect light will bring such unimaginable happiness and contentment only to fall short and find someone to blame at time –we take the blame not knowing we are putting the wrong chip at the wrong place.

It really irritates me when all we can only really think or talk about is our sexuality –I mean we have a world existing besides we just being gay/bi.Why do we really make our sexuality define every aspects of our lives-it like a grading scale everything in our life is graded against. We are beautiful, ugly, imperfect, soft, sweet, bised, stereotypes –we are just as the same-when one tells you as I read in a blog-you are an abomination-please c’mon you really believe that shit and go into depression-the attitude should be am so important and worthy being in this planet for every one of us has a purpose and who are they to judge.

When self meditating I always look around in my life how friends and family value me thus I deeply know am of so much value and purpose yet to be fulfilled and just by the way if one finds you useless in the since when they know who you really are the depart then sweethearts you are roaming with the wrong ants. 


The one thing we can know is we are all beautiful and nothing can replace every one of us knowing each one of us has a divine purpose to achieve in this world.