Friday, 30 March 2012


when i was growing up ,my life was in shambles living as an orphan that no one wanted,found a burden by many,dispised more often ,as a child we feel bruised and emoionally emasculated.

One has to find solace and a strength in what makes us feel valuable and full of worth.many a times we develop a thick skin to block the pain away.

This rather developed me into a being that is self aware and know my guards ohh to well,using my strengths to my benefits and working through my weaknesses to be better.

Self identity is a process that can take years depending with factors one lives in.One would ask me what is your strongest point as many will go with  physicality,achievements but i would rather without a shred of doubt go for my mind.It can open doors and overcome barriers @ times even living me all to well perplexed by my capabilities.

Sexuality is one of the hardest things that has really bagged me strongly i might say.I feel attracted to guys yes but never acted upon it until recently finally caving out of the comfort shell.many around me know am very opinionated and have strong value for certain things in life like homosexuality.

Many gays find their identities on their sexuality ,its what they flaunt ,its who they really and all about yet ,being critical of them based on that they find offense.*DEBATEABLE*

Lets find identity on our content of characters we are inside of us.was listening to this bbc documentary of gays in turkey who don't want to go to the army so to be allowed to do so they have to prove they are gay~photos or sex tapes.i get their pain but why cant gay men prove we are just as MEN like other men.

Where is the masculine gay constructor "left" he is just as gay , gay doesn't have to be all sissy ,wanna be female which Hollywood is showing.more so here in Kenya. gay people are associated with prostitution and femininity which is VERY vague and insulting.there is a straight looking accountant,
chef,teacher,ceo,engineer,lawyer who's identity is not really his sexuality but what he stands for in the society.

We are fabulous beings and we aught to eradicate the "vast" misconceptions by giving our identity some concrete.we just so happen to enjoy sex with the same gender but we are just as men ..

Wednesday, 21 March 2012


Life is a journey that we would love to control,hear the whispers of the wind on the trees,the cries of pain of the suffering,we mask ourselves hoping it gets better,we adapt to different situations and environnments in order to lessen the pain or increase the comftability. life is a strange process at times it overwhelms us with its facets of dynamism ,we so entangled so deep we fasten our belts but never know how to untie them.

Mr hot cake (lets call him SK) The man that unbuckled my safety belts and knuckled me senseless with his i came out to him as i told you guys earlier.his response was rather strange,we were supposed to meet up on a wednesday ,so he told me he will hala .dude dint even care to text or call ,so i text him of course with an agitated sound to tell him we just call it off~hard hinted of my intentions and we cant be he was like its all gud if its what you want.My gudness it was such a painful period getting rid of the emotions and forgetting him,them he calls four days later like nothing happened that am silent.geez

So i texted him later that day telling him how i really feel,kissing his lips!gosh they are luscious,don't even start me up on his booty with all his man swag,maleness oozing of him,he does the sagging thing where i would see Dem cakes PERFECTLY i want him more.He has this tenderness about him that is so attractive so irresistible.

So he said NO it cant happen,it was heart piercing but also a sense of freedom i direly needed to be able to let go and move on.i have decided am not going to cling on something that is never going to happen ,the unavailable type that will mess my feelings as he enjoys his gf pussy without a care in the world.

My love wil go more to loving me and having more time for self reavaluation to find my strenghts that wil help me be a better person in my world as well as to the next lover.chasing shadows is epitomy of apathy in sence of delusionment that am not going to let take me over.i cant change him or make him a person he is not,to feel things he cant feel or know not how.letting go is a relieve that is gonna help me grow...

But strangely enough he gave me a sense of elusive fantasy ,that removed me from my comfort zone and finally made me crave to explore this side of me,listening to kate voegele,colbie caillat,joshua radin and jason mraz aint helping either but i guess these are experiences we learn from and be better persons.


Monday, 5 March 2012

crazzy ha!!

Sometimes stars have their significant others come visit them on the set at work. Such is the case with this acting couple. She came to his film set for a quick visit before hopping a plane back to her own film set. It was nice day, and the two of them went inside and shut the door. You already know what happened next: Fifteen minutes of noisy, trailer-rocking sex! Now, this wasn’t some quickie in a private place. This was a trailer, parked on a city street, with the windows wide open, and the two of them moaning so loudly that anyone within thirty feet could hear them! The actor’s bodyguard (who was stationed outside the trailer) was clearly embarrassed, and did his best to make sure that civilians were staying far away from the trailer, but there was nothing he could do about the crew members who were lingering nearby, enjoying the sexy entertainment. What is really odd to us is that people who know this couple have told us in the past that they are a PR setup and that the two don’t even like each other! So either they were putting on a very realistic performance to convince others that their relationship is legit … or they are now are serious eff buddies. Justin Timberlake & Jessica Biel


FAMOUS Blind vicers

It turns out that Hollywood is not the only place you need beards. Sports also has a need for beards. What happens when you combine the two? You get an NFL player who wants to meet gay actors so "dates" a B list actress. Hey, she has done it before for a reality star. Hayden Panettiere and Scotty McKnight 

Which (unfortunately) A list R&B singer loves touring overseas because he hires male hookers he beats while yelling he's not gay & then fucks them. Usher

 THIS A-List actor shed his substance abuse problems to become a Hollywood role model for clean living, but now it seems he has a new addiction – cross-dressing! He loves to doll himself up in vintage women’s clothing and has spent more than $10,000 on items such as high heels, dresses, fancy hair accessories and hats. The goods are ordered online (using an alias) and delivered to his manager’s house. Robert Downey Jr.

 THIS Oscar-winning ladies’ man has taken his obsessive and out-of-control sex life to new levels. The heterosexual comedian/actor/singer is so insatiable that he’s started turning tricks with men! Who is the newly bisexual star? Jamie Foxx

 This actor has been immersing himself in work and flying under the radar lately. That will soon change. His reps have been beard shopping for him to start publicity just in time for a couple of films to hit theaters. Jake Gyllenhaal

digging more dirt..stay tunned


Long before his first statue, this award-winning actor once beat the shit out of a paparazzo. The actor was enjoying some intimate company at a private NYC men’s club when he was surprised by the photographer. The actor – who normally is known for being a laid-back kind of guy – went absolutely berserk. He grabbed the camera away from the paparazzo and started wailing on the guy with his fists. His friends pulled him off, paid off the bloodied photographer, and thankfully convinced him not to press charges. Good thing, too, or else the actor might not be taken seriously when he promotes peaceful solutions to conflicts. George Clooney

Man of GOD has asecret

There is an area in Griffith Park where you can take the kiddies for a train ride. A certain actor used to enjoy taking men for another kind of ride in the same area. He would cruise the park, pick up a guy, and then hook up with them in his car. The really ironic thing here is that the actor is so religious that when he was a teen heartthrob (a couple of decades ago) he used to insist that any dialogue that was even the slightest bit sexual or profane be removed from his lines because they violated his sense of decency. He’s all grown up now – and still cruises for guys – but we’re sure his wife really appreciates what a moral man she married. Kirk Cameron

Mr ,mission immpossible plays for us..

This top actor recently engaged the professional company of an effeminate boy for the night. The following night our star was out at a bar with a group of people. The boy and his pimp showed up with a group of his own to demand payment for the services rendered. The pimp zeroed in on our star, a yelling match ensued between the two groups, and things quickly escalated into a physical brawl. Somebody got hurt, but it wasn’t our star, who was promptly hustled out of there. However, any stories about the event have conveniently left out the part about the hooker and the pimp, as well as the fact that the fight took place in a gay bar. Our star stays in the closet and lives to fight another day. Jeremy Renner

Bit of a schocker even for me.. 

Mr. Hairy-Tuchus makes a come back

Isn't it funny when somebody like Strawberry Snort 'Em appears to have it all: Devoted and cute BF? Check. Cool digs? Beyond-average talent? Check. Back-stabbing besties? Check! But when the love affair busts up, Strawberry stops eating and starts snorting even more, so sad! But, this Vice isn't about Strawberry, it's about a dude who never, ever wants to be in Strawberry's lovelorn position: Topher Hairy-Tuchus. And even though Topher's determined to not get caught in love again (he's had a couple of bad breakups), he's not at all averse to getting caught in lust: As we first told you,Topher's into the anonymous sex thing. And whereas we used to think it was just because Mr. Hairy-Tuchus, like many men in Hollywood, is just a plain ol' closeted actor, well, that's not the only reason he likes to get it on with other guys on the down low. "He's just done with love, that's all. It's not so much his career, which is what everyone thinks," says a pal who knows Topher both personally, and professionally. Whoa. So Topher's not so designing in the love department as much as we first thought? Amazing! Because Topher sure has been giving us all a run for his red-carpet money lately with various sexy ladies by his side—and then some. "No, no, no," added our Topher source. "He's just horny. And permanently non-committed. It's really that simple. The chicks are a cover for his [sex], not so much his career, get it?" Do we ever. And here we thought Hairy-Tuchus was some kind of grand, scheming Toothy Tile, who knew! Just remember, Toph, play safe! And It Ain't: Ashton Kutcher, Jamie Foxx, Ryan Gosling. Bradley Cooper

Actors throws us by

You probably saw lots of photos of celebrities on vacation over the holidays. For example, there were photos of this attractive acting couple, relaxing together, all cozy and kissy and handsy. Sweet, right? Well, the real gossip is in what the cameras didn’t show you: the guy’s real boyfriend (also an actor), who accompanied the couple on the vacation but managed to stay just out of camera range. Yes, the relationship you see in pretty pictures is just a professional bearding arrangement, desperately trying to look like a real relationship. Bradley Cooper & Zoe Saldana; Zoe Kravitz, Penn Badgley, and Shawn Pyfrom