Life is funny; it’s cruel, ruthless, crazy, fun,
enlightening and filled with a ray of mixed emotions that sometimes way us down.
The crisp difference between sadness and joy is so thin that situations can
force us to make difficult decisions regarding what’s wrong from right.
In the this lifestyle, it’s even harder to make
sound choices considering the cold homophobic environment we live in only to be
compounded further by the utter illusionalism many gay men dream with, the perfect
bf ,one who will carry our burdens, walk hand in hand in the streets without shame,
one who hold you against his breathing broad chest ,you the one that makes you
feel safe in his muscular arms ,ride and wallow in his toxic love, the perfect
one that cares for nothing really but the love ,the bond the connection the two
of you share, unfortunately reality
rains in our parade as the real gay world is filled with cheaters, hoes,
callous, dirty, dreamers, self hating men ,daft ,sex crazies.
I believe there exist prolly good decent gay guys
but goodness are they far and wide to be found, the ones that will be dedicated
to something albeit not perfect or who believe in “working it out” irrespective
of the differences in opinions and sundry.
I remember when my ex told me he has seizures before we even met, I freaked the
hell out and called a very close g pal for counsel and what he told me I will
never forget….he said “rob you have a character that can handle any situation,
you are good hearted and kind guy, he may be just maybe the one you’ve been
waiting for”
I agreed and this never was an issue to me at all throughout
the rship,I wouldn’t lie I was sometimes scared but I was going to be there for
him through the worse ,I was going to be true to my character and be a good bf
in worse & trying times, am writing this because a another friend confided
in me about his ex bf and boy oh boy I was very saddened by the story….let me
paraphrase…
They met in high school and began dating second term
of fourth form, the rship was good, they enjoyed each other and life was good
infact after exams ,he went and visited the bf at their rural place ,this would
soon become the norm -they would visit each other back and forth so much both
families knew the they were close pals…..tragedy happened and the bf was
involved in a grisly accident that left him amputated on both legs, my friend was
heartbroken and at loss but he visited
him often in the hospital…..one day the sister told my friend the bf(brother) told him everything ,she knows
their secret that the brother confided in her..of course then my friend was
still struggling with his sexuality so he freaked out and never returned to the
hospital but would occasionally tweet the sister checking if her brother is
okay.
This is something that happened three four years ago
and hez never communicated to his lover or the sister, until he told me the
story a couple of days ago, I reasoned with him that sometimes what we need is
to be that person that rises above adversity and difficult situations and be
the better person, someone who can stick with us through thick and thin but because
we get stuck up in looking for “perfect man” we get astray loose focus and end
up with wounded lonely hearts..We have to think beyond what is physically
attractive and look for the beauty within.
He finally called the sister and he reached his
former lover who was nothing but ELATED,ECSTACTIC AND HAPPY that he can see his
love’s face again, infact he cracked a
joke that he was so sure deep within his gut he would look for him even if it’s
after five years. Dating again I have no idea but we should be people that
bring happiness and joy to the ones we treasure, atleast we owe it to them…….
Can you stick through better or worse……..
